pur \u0219i simplu f\u0103cusem o hemoragie asta pentru c\u0103 eram un animal cu s\u00e2nge nu \u00eemi aminteam degeaba ghidu\u0219e c\u00e2nd o \u00eenghesuiam cuvintele se scurseser\u0103 din creier ca ni\u0219te cadavre depuse pe batist\u0103 ca via\u021ba mea b\u0103tr\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i cutr\u0103 iadului \u00eei era fric\u0103 de Mama<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n la spitalul municipal la c\u00e2inii alergau cu buc\u0103\u021bi doctorii se futeau pe masa de disec\u021bie p\u00e2n\u0103 \u0219i Mama \u00ee\u0219i scosese m\u0103 urma \u0219i \u00een iad se f\u0103cea mic \u0219i \u00ee\u0219i b\u0103ga coada func\u021bionam cu mari pierderi<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n m\u0103 mul\u021bumeam cu deci a\u0219 fi putut de exemplu s\u0103 spun foarte savant c\u0103 de-aia intram \u00een panic\u0103 adesea pur \u0219i simplu a\u0219a plecase Tata aveam m\u0103car prin el experien\u021ba dar dar eu continuam ru\u0219inos inima se \u00eemboln\u0103vea de inim\u0103 rea de oftic\u0103 func\u021bionam cu mari pierderi imediat ce ajungeau acas\u0103 spectatorii habar n-am cu ce \u00ee\u0219i irosise Mama via\u021ba chiar \u0219tia ea ce \u0219tia eu am crezut c\u0103 e vreo p\u0103dure dup\u0103 ce a pus de ursitori to\u021bi dar le trecea repede se futeau adic\u0103 f\u0103ceau dragoste a\u0219 putea \u00eencropi pe loc o explica\u021bie<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n preotul acesta vorbe\u0219te pe nas c\u0103ci are dreptate mereu nu vor s\u0103 fie goli\u021bi de v\u00e2ntul ce umfl\u0103 \u2014 ai grij\u0103 s\u0103 fii mereu \u00eencheiat habar n-am dar a\u0219 putea \u00eencropi pe loc o explica\u021bie ele sunt mai ales \u00een timpul levita\u021biei Mama iubea maimu\u021bicile s\u0103raca Mama la marginea zilei \u2014 nu-\u021bi fie team\u0103 pui\u0219or toat\u0103 de noroc \u0219i boabele Mama se pricepea de minune s\u0103 ne duc\u0103 nu golea borcanul uneori ne st\u0103teau \u00een g\u00e2t tot felul \u2014 ce bine e cu tine \u00eei spuneam a\u0219a a f\u0103cut a ucis pur \u0219i simplua\u0219a se petreceau lucrurile f\u0103cusem o hemoragienici prea-prea nici foarte-foartecum dormeam eu a\u0219a cu t\u00e2mplape pietre asta pentru c\u0103 eram un animal cu s\u00e2ngepur \u0219i simplua\u0219a se petreceau lucrurilepierdeam clipecurgeau din mine ca apa pe pu\u021bulicaefebului ce alimentacu iluziif\u00e2nt\u00e2na artezian\u0103 din Liceul Elena Cuza (unde sor\u0103-mea eras\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i piard\u0103 virginitatea) nu \u00eemi aminteamnimic din vie\u021bilemele anterioare ce \u00eemi serviser\u0103lec\u021bieeram un repetent incorigibilla materia biografie serioas\u0103 degeaba\u00eencercam eu s\u0103 \u00eemi \u00eencordezcreierulera prea t\u00e2rziu pentru meningele meu locuit de cuvinte ghidu\u0219e c\u00e2nd o \u00eenghesuiampe Maria \u00een bibliotec\u0103\u00een timp ce \u00eenv\u0103\u021bam limba german\u0103la Liceul Elena Cuza unde sor\u0103-mea era s\u0103-\u0219i 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a\u0219a se petreceau lucrurile<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n
nici prea-prea nici foarte-foarte
cum dormeam eu a\u0219a cu t\u00e2mpla
pe pietre<\/p>\n\n\n\n
pur \u0219i simplu
a\u0219a se petreceau lucrurile
pierdeam clipe
curgeau din mine ca apa pe pu\u021bulica
efebului ce alimenta
cu iluzii
f\u00e2nt\u00e2na artezian\u0103 din Liceul Elena Cuza (unde sor\u0103-mea era
s\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i piard\u0103 virginitatea)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
nimic din vie\u021bile
mele anterioare ce \u00eemi serviser\u0103
lec\u021bie
eram un repetent in
corigibil
la materia biografie serioas\u0103<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00eencercam eu s\u0103 \u00eemi \u00eencordez
creierul
era prea t\u00e2rziu pentru meninge
le meu locuit de cuvinte<\/p>\n\n\n\n
pe Maria \u00een bibliotec\u0103
\u00een timp ce \u00eenv\u0103\u021bam limba german\u0103
la Liceul Elena Cuza unde sor\u0103-mea era s\u0103-\u0219i piard\u0103 virginitatea<\/p>\n\n\n\n
prin cr\u0103p\u0103turi
pur \u0219i simplu
lipsite de eroism
\u0219i se mul\u021bumeau s\u0103 fie
l\u0103sate \u00een pace<\/p>\n\n\n\n
la morg\u0103 cumin\u021bi
ca flegma cea verde
pioas\u0103<\/p>\n\n\n\n
f\u0103r\u0103 copii
golit\u0103 de \u021bip\u0103t
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
maternitatea
popular\u0103 unde \u00eemi umplusem pl\u0103m\u00e2nii
cu aer
ul oamenilor
afla\u021bi \u00een mi\u0219care<\/p>\n\n\n\n
de organe
\u00een gurile lor negre c\u00e2rtitoare
surorile medicale f\u0103ceau fela\u021bii
nevinovate
paznicilor \u00een morga cea plin\u0103 de sertare (acolo
dormeam
noi \u0219i aristotel cu capul plin
de atribute)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00een gard\u0103 cu blondele
sau brunele moa\u0219e cu pilozit\u0103\u021bi axiale
iar cei mai merituo\u0219i
studen\u021bi se masturbau sub halate
le largi puteau s\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i mi\u0219te
\u00een voie m\u00e2na lor cea dreapt\u0103
m\u0103runte pl\u0103ceri liturghia \u00eenalt\u0103<\/p>\n\n\n\n
lasciv portjartierul
se preg\u0103tea
s\u0103 \u00eemi ucid\u0103 rivalii din specie
s\u0103 fac\u0103 dragoste cu dirigintele asta pentru c\u0103
biografia
mea trebuia cu orice pre\u021b
s\u0103 mearg\u0103 mai departe<\/p>\n\n\n\n
dac\u0103 era nevoie
iar iadului \u00eei era fric\u0103 de Mama<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00eentre picioare
c\u00e2nd auzea c\u0103 o mam\u0103
vine s\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i ia de acolo copilul
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
jum\u0103t\u0103\u021bi cu centauri
purtam \u00bd din trupul lui Tata
m\u0103 compl\u0103ceam \u00een logici savante
care oricum nu foloseau la nimic
nu
convinseser\u0103
nici pro\u0219tii
\u00een fond eram doctor<\/p>\n\n\n\n
c\u0103 totul
era o urm\u0103 spermatic\u0103
un fel de Cale Lactee<\/em>
pe care o urmam somnambulic<\/p>\n\n\n\n
totul
se putea termina
foarte repede<\/p>\n\n\n\n
ca o dilu\u021bie
alopat\u0103
nu \u00eei r\u0103m\u0103sese dec\u00e2t locul
(citisem mai t\u00e2rziu din clasicii greci
despre Kh\u00f4ra<\/em> \u0219i alte chestii savante)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
cine a mai pomenit
copil s\u0103 se \u00eenve\u021be minte vreodat\u0103
(de-aia improvizam tot felul
spunea Tata \u00eenfuriat pe preo\u021bi
spunea c\u0103 ei sunt cei mai mari \u0219mecheri)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
pierdeam pu\u021bin pe cear\u0219af diminea\u021ba
alunecam \u00een ro\u0219u
ca \u00een cr\u0103p\u0103tur\u0103
un rid al p\u0103m\u00e2ntului \u00eenainte
s\u0103 devin\u0103 groap\u0103<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0219i mortul murea
irosind versiuni chibzuite<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
se futeau adic\u0103 f\u0103ceau dragoste<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n
i-am repro\u0219at asta
\u00een cea mai mare parte a timpului
Mama treb\u0103luia
\u00eempletea din cuvinte
o coroni\u021b\u0103 s\u0103 ne mul\u021bumeasc\u0103 pe to\u021bi<\/p>\n\n\n\n
c\u00e2nd m-a n\u0103scut mi-a pus-o pe frunte
apoi a aranjat pentru ursitori
o t\u0103vi\u021b\u0103
ieftin\u0103
cu
o verighet\u0103 de aur
ceasul lui Tata
bani mul\u021bi de h\u00e2rtie \u0219i metalici
ochio\u0219i
o carte fo\u0219nitoare<\/p>\n\n\n\n
cartea (pe ea am ales-o)
am pus-o la ureche ce sunet
\u0219i acum \u00eel aud de\u0219i pielea
\u00eencepuse s\u0103 se usuce a\u0219a
se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 c\u00e2nd ai fa\u021ba plin\u0103 de riduri
devii mai femeie \u00een\u021beleapt\u0103<\/p>\n\n\n\n
au plecat
pu\u021bin dezam\u0103gi\u021bi uitaser\u0103 locurile
unde parcaser\u0103
automobile
vremelnic<\/p>\n\n\n\n
c\u0103ci se \u0219tie imediat
ce ajungeau acas\u0103 spectatorii<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
de parc\u0103 ar avea polipi
seam\u0103n\u0103 cu Tata<\/p>\n\n\n\n
oamenilor le este
team\u0103 s\u0103 \u00ee\u0219i arate
sufletele lor de slujnice sfioase
le e ru\u0219ine de moarte<\/p>\n\n\n\n
de erec\u021bii<\/p>\n\n\n\n
regulamentar
la g\u00e2t \u0219i \u0219li\u021b \u00eemi spunea Tata
\u00eenainte
s\u0103
\u00ee\u0219i schimonoseasc\u0103 fa\u021ba<\/p>\n\n\n\n
de ce toate astea<\/p>\n\n\n\n
din cuvinte<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00eentotdeauna adev\u0103rate<\/p>\n\n\n\n
<\/p>\n\n\n\n
neajutorate<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n
prin care se scurgeau ca \u00eentr-o artezian\u0103 mor\u021bii
\u00eencerca s\u0103 m\u0103 mai am\u0103geasc\u0103 o dat\u0103<\/p>\n\n\n\n
lumea te iube\u0219te
\u2014 pui pui hai la Mama
mie \u00eemi pl\u0103ceau
la nebunie jocurile<\/p>\n\n\n\n
de porumb
galbene ca toate semin\u021bele
la capetele lor a\u0219tepta
t\u0103ietorul de g\u00e2turi<\/p>\n\n\n\n
cu z\u0103h\u0103relul
cu gustul bomboanelor ude
s\u0103 p\u0103streze
pu\u021bin\u0103 copil\u0103rie niciodat\u0103<\/p>\n\n\n\n
cu dulcea\u021b\u0103 mai l\u0103sa pu\u021bin pentru
nu se \u0219tie
noi h\u0103p\u0103iam ca l\u0103comeii deodat\u0103<\/p>\n\n\n\n
de nef\u0103cute
nu \u0219tiusem
c\u0103 b\u0103tr\u00e2ne\u021bea era a\u0219a aventuroas\u0103<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mamei mele femeie sovietic\u0103
ea m\u0103 privea mustr\u0103tor
ag\u0103\u021bat\u0103 de marginea vie\u021bii
ca o co\u021bofan\u0103 dresat\u0103
s\u0103 ucid\u0103 genele altora performante<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0219iruri de genera\u021bii lag\u0103re
altminteri era minunat de duioas\u0103
se pricepea la avorturi
iubea
maimu\u021bicile neajutorate<\/p>\n\n\n\nHoria Dulvac<\/strong> este prozator, eseist \u0219i poet. \u00cen perioada studiilor universitare, redactor al revistei \u201eForum Studen\u021besc\u201d din Timi\u0219oara (unde \u0219i debuteaz\u0103 publicistic cu versuri) \u0219i membru al grup\u0103rii literare \u201ePavel Dan\u201d. Autor al volumelor de proz\u0103: Femeia lui Ghidirmic<\/em> (1994), Efect Doppler<\/em> (2009, 2016), \u00cen fertil<\/em> (2021). Eseu: \u00cengrijor\u0103ri f\u0103r\u0103 mandat<\/em> (2000), Discursuri \u0219i p\u0103r\u021bi<\/em> (2005), Revan\u0219e ale alterit\u0103\u021bii<\/em> (2005), Feluri de posibil<\/em> (2011), Entropie \u0219i frumos; aplica\u021bie pe o floare a soarelui<\/em> (2017). Cu poezie debuteaz\u0103 editorial \u00een 2020, la v\u00e2rsta de 62 de ani, cu volumul Nimeni nu-mi spunea<\/em> (tip\u0103rit \u00een acela\u0219i an, \u00een limba maghiar\u0103, sub titlul Nem mondta senki<\/em>). Au urmat volumele de poeme \u00cen digestie<\/em> (2021) \u0219i Noroc c\u0103 puteam reseta astfel totul<\/em> (2022). \u00cen prezent, tr\u0103ie\u0219te \u00een Alsacia (Fran\u021ba); scrie \u00een limba rom\u00e2n\u0103.<\/pre>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"