{"id":1658,"date":"2021-04-04T08:16:00","date_gmt":"2021-04-04T05:16:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/?p=1658"},"modified":"2021-04-04T13:12:00","modified_gmt":"2021-04-04T10:12:00","slug":"astfel-incepe-o-zi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/?p=1658","title":{"rendered":"Astfel \u00eencepe o zi"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"100%\" height=\"166\" scrolling=\"no\" frameborder=\"no\" allow=\"autoplay\" src=\"https:\/\/w.soundcloud.com\/player\/?url=https%3A\/\/api.soundcloud.com\/tracks\/1021579036&#038;color=%239f9f9f&#038;auto_play=false&#038;hide_related=false&#038;show_comments=true&#038;show_user=true&#038;show_reposts=false&#038;show_teaser=true\"><\/iframe><div style=\"font-size: 10px; color: #cccccc;line-break: anywhere;word-break: normal;overflow: hidden;white-space: nowrap;text-overflow: ellipsis; font-family: Interstate,Lucida Grande,Lucida Sans Unicode,Lucida Sans,Garuda,Verdana,Tahoma,sans-serif;font-weight: 100;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/user-899809035\" title=\"Revista de cultur\u0103 FAMILIA\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\" rel=\"noopener\">Revista de cultur\u0103 FAMILIA<\/a> \u00b7 <a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/user-899809035\/ciprian-macesaru-citind-astfel-incepe-o-zi-familia-2-32021\" title=\"Ciprian Ma\u0306ces\u0326aru citind \u201eAstfel \u00eencepe o zi\u201d (Familia 2-3\/2021)\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\" rel=\"noopener\">Ciprian Ma\u0306ces\u0326aru citind \u201eAstfel \u00eencepe o zi\u201d (Familia 2-3\/2021)<\/a><\/div>\n\n\n\n<h4 class=\"has-text-align-center wp-block-heading\">22.<\/h4>\n\n\n\n<p>Z\u0103pada lipse\u0219te cu des\u0103v\u00e2r\u0219ire. A plouat toat\u0103 noaptea \u0219i nu po\u021bi face doi pa\u0219i f\u0103r\u0103 s\u0103 te umpli de noroi, mai ales pe drumurile l\u0103turalnice \u0219i neasfaltate din Wallendorf. Tocmai azi, Sonia vrea s\u0103 mergem la cimitir, s\u0103 aprindem o lum\u00e2nare la morm\u00e2ntul domnului Szabo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00cen Bistri\u021ba e agita\u021bie mare. Lumea alearg\u0103 la cump\u0103r\u0103turi sau s\u0103-\u0219i rezolve cine \u0219tie ce probleme l\u0103sate pe ultimul moment sau care s-au ivit pe nea\u0219teptate, a\u0219a c\u0103 \u00eenaint\u0103m lent, prin\u0219i \u00eentr-o coloan\u0103 nesf\u00e2r\u0219it\u0103. Mai mult, re\u00eencepe s\u0103 plou\u0103. Un drum pe care alt\u0103dat\u0103 \u00eel f\u0103ceam \u00een aproximativ zece minute, \u00eel parcurgem acum \u00een dou\u0103zeci \u0219i cinci.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>La cimitir, ne tragem glugile pe cap \u0219i ne chinuim s\u0103 ne strecur\u0103m printre morminte, c\u0103lc\u00e2nd adesea pe marginea lor, pentru c\u0103 pur \u0219i simplu nu exist\u0103 loc \u00eentre ele. La un moment dat, alunec \u0219i m\u0103 pr\u0103bu\u0219esc peste o movil\u0103 acoperit\u0103 cu flori \u0219i coroane. Abia-abia m\u0103 ridic, dar imediat lovesc cu c\u0103lc\u00e2iul o margine de beton \u0219i aterizez pe morm\u00e2ntul din spatele meu, lovindu-m\u0103 cu capul de ceva \u0219i pierz\u00e2ndu-mi cuno\u0219tin\u021ba.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>C\u00e2nd m\u0103 trezesc, m\u0103 aflu \u00eentr-un amfiteatru arhiplin. Sunt gol, \u00eentins pe o mas\u0103 \u00een jurul c\u0103reia se agit\u0103 patru b\u0103rba\u021bi. Unul dintre ei vorbe\u0219te \u0219i se uit\u0103 c\u00e2nd la public, c\u00e2nd la mine. M\u0103 uimesc chipurile lor demodate, cel care vorbe\u0219te \u0219i \u00eenc\u0103 unul au ditamai b\u0103rbile, altul e ple\u0219uv \u0219i poart\u0103 o musta\u021b\u0103 pe oal\u0103, iar cel de al patrulea e ras \u00een jurul gurii \u0219i pe obraji, barba trec\u00e2ndu-i ca o curea pe sub b\u0103rbie.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>Conferen\u021biarul apuc\u0103 de pe o m\u0103su\u021b\u0103 metalic\u0103 un fier\u0103str\u0103u \u0219i \u00eemi taie cutia cranian\u0103, dar nu simt absolut nimic. \u0218i nici nu m\u0103 pot mi\u0219ca. Vreau s\u0103 \u021bip, dar nici asta nu pot s\u0103 fac. Dup\u0103 ce \u00eendep\u0103rteaz\u0103 calota, \u00ee\u0219i v\u00e2r\u0103 labele \u00een \u021beasta mea \u0219i-mi smulge creierul, apoi \u00eel ridic\u0103 pentru a-l putea vedea toat\u0103 lumea. Nu e un creier obi\u0219nuit, ci un imens miez de nuc\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>Deodat\u0103, \u00eemi dau seama c\u0103 cel care m\u0103 h\u0103cuie\u0219te e Dostoievski! \u00cen\u021beleg ce spune, de\u0219i nu am idee \u00een ce limb\u0103 vorbe\u0219te:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eIat\u0103 creierul unui romancier ratat!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00cei recunosc \u0219i pe colegii s\u0103i: Tolstoi, Flaubert, Stendhal.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Cei care asist\u0103 la aceast\u0103 lec\u021bie de anatomie sunt, de asemenea, romancieri. Turgheniev, James Joyce, Gogol, Yourcenar, Laurence Sterne, Hrabal, Virginia Woolf, Marquez, Maupassant, Verga, Machado de Assis, Zola, Faulkner, surorile Bront\u00eb, Balzac, Dickens, D\u00f6blin, Conrad, Svevo, Melville, E\u00e7a de Queir\u00f3s, C\u00e9line, George Eliot, Proust, Kafka, Thomas Hardy, Jane Austen, Buzzati&#8230; To\u021bi, to\u021bi cei importan\u021bi sunt acolo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>Dostoievski arunc\u0103 \u00een public miezul de nuc\u0103 \u0219i o veselie de nedescris \u00eei cuprinde pe to\u021bi. Creierul ajunge mai \u00eent\u00e2i la Balzac, acesta i-l arunc\u0103 lui Proust, Proust i-l paseaz\u0103 lui Joyce, Joyce \u00eel arunc\u0103 la Svevo \u0219i a\u0219a mai departe. Amfiteatrul r\u0103sun\u0103 de r\u00e2setele lor \u0219i, v\u0103z\u00e2nd c\u00e2t de tare \u00eei distreaz\u0103 pe ace\u0219ti colo\u0219i ai literaturii mintea mea, \u00eencerc s\u0103 z\u00e2mbesc, dar retrac\u021bia muscular\u0103 nu se produce, r\u0103m\u00e2n complet imobil, parc\u0103 \u00eempietrit de o vraj\u0103.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>Simt c\u0103 mi se-ncinge u\u0219or obrazul st\u00e2ng \u0219i, de\u0219i am ochii deschi\u0219i, al\u021bi ochi mi se deschid, ochii adev\u0103ra\u021bi, \u00eenchiz\u00e2ndu-i pe cei din vis.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>Sonia e aplecat\u0103 deasupra mea \u0219i m\u0103 strig\u0103 \u00eengrozit\u0103:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eCristian!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Observ\u00e2nd c\u0103 dau semne de via\u021b\u0103, m\u0103 plesne\u0219te peste acela\u0219i obraz \u0219i, de data asta, simt c\u0103-mi mut\u0103 falca din loc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eVrei s\u0103 m\u0103 omori?!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eNu, tu vrei s\u0103 m\u0103 omori. Hai, ridic\u0103-te!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>M\u0103 prinde de un cot \u0219i trage de mine.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eAh, ce m\u0103 doare capul! E spart?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eNu cred, dar ar trebui, totu\u0219i, s\u0103 mergem la spital.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sunt plin de noroi \u0219i mi-e frig, reu\u0219esc s\u0103 redevin biped \u0219i spun:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201ePentru at\u00e2ta lucru?! Nici nu m\u0103 g\u00e2ndesc.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201ePoate ai hemoragie intern\u0103&#8230;\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eProstii! Sunt bine. M\u0103 \u00eentorc la ma\u0219in\u0103. Iart\u0103-m\u0103! Te a\u0219tept acolo. Vreau s\u0103 m\u0103 cur\u0103\u021b un pic.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eE\u0219ti sigur c\u0103 po\u021bi merge singur?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eDa. Sunt ok.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201eBine, cascadorule. Vin \u0219i eu imediat.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>Pornesc c\u0103tre ie\u0219ire, \u00een cap simt o bil\u0103 fierbinte, iar \u00een spate, \u00eenfipt, un cu\u021bit. Ploaia face ca noroiul s\u0103 se preling\u0103 pe mine \u00een d\u00e2re cenu\u0219ii. Sunt un soldat \u00een uniform\u0103 de camuflaj.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>M\u0103 a\u0219ez la volan, cu ochii pironi\u021bi \u00een parbriz. Nu din cauza geamului aburit nu v\u0103d nimic, ci pentru c\u0103 o triste\u021be groas\u0103, ca o m\u00e2zg\u0103, \u00eemi \u00eentunec\u0103 sufletul.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>La \u00eentoarcere, Sonia m\u0103 \u00eentreab\u0103 dac\u0103 sunt bine. \u00cei spun c\u0103 sunt ok, dar insist\u0103, iar tonul meu devine aproape agresiv:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u201e\u021ai-am spus, n-am nimic!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>Doamna Szabo a preg\u0103tit pentru cin\u0103 ciorb\u0103 de peri\u0219oare \u0219i pulpe de g\u00e2sc\u0103 cu piure, mere caramelizate \u0219i sos de zmeur\u0103. M\u00e2nc\u0103m \u00een sufragerie. M\u0103 pl\u00e2ng c\u0103 am f\u0103cut suta de kilograme, \u00eens\u0103 Radu \u00eemi spune c\u0103 sunt departe de dimensiunile celui mai gras om care a existat vreodat\u0103. C\u00e2nd a murit, americanul Jon Brower Minnoch avea 635 de kilograme.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00cemi imaginez uneori c\u0103, prin nu \u0219tiu ce stranie \u00eent\u00e2mplare, ajung pe o planet\u0103 locuit\u0103 de oameni ca noi, dar ale c\u0103ror competen\u021be \u00een toate domeniile sunt mult mai mici. A\u0219adar, o lume mai slab dezvoltat\u0103, o lume f\u0103r\u0103 o Grecie antic\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 un Imperiu Roman, f\u0103r\u0103 o Rena\u0219tere, f\u0103r\u0103 o Revolu\u021bie industrial\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 o Revolu\u021bie tehnologic\u0103, f\u0103r\u0103 nimic din marile noastre realiz\u0103ri. Ei bine, \u00een lumea aia m\u0103runt\u0103 a\u0219 c\u0103p\u0103ta, ca scriitor, dimensiunea unui Gulliver, c\u0103r\u021bile mele ar fi <em>Divina comedie<\/em>, <em>R\u0103zboi \u0219i pace<\/em>, <em>Muntele vr\u0103jit<\/em>\u2026, a\u0219 fi un uria\u0219 printre liliputani, un om de 635 de kilograme printre sl\u0103b\u0103nogi de numai o sut\u0103, a\u0219 fi un Jon Brower Minnoch al acelei literaturi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00cen camera de la etaj. Mezzo, Recviemul lui Mozart. Apusul contamineaz\u0103 cu reflexii s\u00e2ngerii albul de lapte al bisericii recent renovate. \u00cen curtea vecin\u0103, o f\u00e2\u0219ie \u00eengust\u0103 \u0219i lung\u0103 de p\u0103m\u00e2nt acoperit\u0103 cu iarb\u0103, un b\u0103rbat cu c\u0103ciul\u0103 de astrahan \u0219i cojoc din piele de oaie, cu ni\u0219te n\u0103dragi negri, murdari de var, \u00ee\u0219i duce \u00een staul cele c\u00e2teva ovine, dintre care una are at\u00e2rnat de g\u00e2t un clopo\u021bel cu sunet scurt \u0219i sec.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:40px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p>Deschid laptopul, intru pe Facebook \u0219i anun\u021b c\u0103 nu voi mai publica nicio carte, c\u0103 voi renun\u021ba la scris, sper\u00e2nd ca decizia mea s\u0103 fie dezaprobat\u0103 puternic, dar primesc cincizeci de haha-uri, \u0219aizeci de <em>like<\/em>-uri \u0219i numai trei fe\u021bi\u0219oare triste. Mai mult, un tip comenteaz\u0103 sec: \u201eAmin!\u201d; comentariu care prime\u0219te, de asemenea, multe haha-uri \u0219i la fel de multe <em>like<\/em>-uri. O cucoan\u0103 \u00eencearc\u0103 s\u0103 fie sufletist\u0103: \u201eDac\u0103 a\u0219a sim\u021bi\u021bi, poate c\u0103 e mai bine. Nu sunte\u021bi dator nim\u0103nui cu nimic. V\u0103 sus\u021bin!\u201d Abia al treilea comentariu e \u00eempotriva hot\u0103r\u00e2rii mele: \u201eSunte\u021bi un autor de talent. Avem nevoie de scrierile dumneavoastr\u0103. Sper din tot sufletul s\u0103 v\u0103 r\u0103zg\u00e2ndi\u021bi. C\u00e2nd ve\u021bi mai fi atacat, pute\u021bi s\u0103 le r\u0103spunde\u021bi detractorilor dumneavoastr\u0103 cu versurile maestrului Corneliu Vadim Tudor: \u00abN-a\u021bi priceput c\u0103 sunt din alt\u0103 lume,\/ Din alt\u0103 fibr\u0103 \u0219i din alt aluat?\/ Din alt t\u0103r\u00e2m am fost trimis anume\/ Precum atlan\u021bii eu m-am \u00eentrupat.\u00bb\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Fragment de roman<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":39,"featured_media":1659,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[29],"tags":[298,167,169,239],"coauthors":[],"class_list":["post-1658","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-fictiune","tag-ciprian-macesaru","tag-fictiune","tag-fragment","tag-nr-2-3-2021"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/04\/Ciprian-Ma\u0306ces\u0326aru2.jpeg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1658","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/39"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1658"}],"version-history":[{"count":11,"href":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1658\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1677,"href":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1658\/revisions\/1677"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/1659"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1658"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1658"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1658"},{"taxonomy":"author","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcoauthors&post=1658"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}