{"id":11007,"date":"2024-07-18T20:39:25","date_gmt":"2024-07-18T17:39:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/?p=11007"},"modified":"2024-07-19T22:07:35","modified_gmt":"2024-07-19T19:07:35","slug":"mama-e-mai-bine","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/revistafamilia.ro\/?p=11007","title":{"rendered":"Mama e mai bine"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

\u00cemping tubul de plastic, iar carnea albit\u0103 \u00eentre degetele mele opune rezisten\u021b\u0103. P\u00eer\u00eeie p\u00een\u0103 c\u00eend v\u00eerful acului trece de primul strat, apoi se las\u0103 str\u0103puns\u0103 ca o bucat\u0103 de unt. E prima dat\u0103 c\u00eend fac injec\u021bie cuiva \u0219i m\u0103 \u00eentreb cum s-ar sim\u021bi \u00een palm\u0103 m\u00eenerul unui cu\u021bit care p\u0103trunde \u00eentre coaste. Dup\u0103 at\u00ee\u021bia ani n-ar trebui s\u0103 m\u0103 mai sperie propria imagina\u021bie \u0219i totu\u0219i alung g\u00eendul abia \u00eenfiripat al matricidului. Ridic privirea s\u0103-i cer \u00eencuviin\u021barea. Fa\u021ba ei e \u00eentoars\u0103 spre perete.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Ap\u0103s?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vocea mea o face s\u0103 tresar\u0103. \u00centoarce capul \u0219i m\u0103 prive\u0219te nedumerit\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Eu \u0219tiu?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00cen urma cuvintelor, buzele i se str\u00eeng \u00eentr-o linie decolorat\u0103. Resemnat\u0103, d\u0103 din m\u00een\u0103, iar pleoapele \u00eei coboar\u0103 peste ochii ad\u00eenci\u021bi \u00een orbite.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 \u0218i-a\u0219a tot\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Fraza \u00eei r\u0103m\u00eene suspendat\u0103 \u00een aer. \u00cen ultimele zile boala i s-a strecurat p\u00een\u0103 \u00een discurs, transform\u00eendu-l \u00eentr-o dezl\u00eenare diferit\u0103 de cea obi\u0219nuit\u0103. \u00cen\u0219iruiri de cuvinte pline de ezitarea din \u00eenaintarea cameleonului, fraze \u00eemp\u0103nate cu spa\u021bii punctate la care a\u0219tept\u0103m \u00een zadar complet\u0103ri. A\u0219 zice c\u0103 s-a hot\u0103r\u00eet s\u0103 concureze cu tata pentru monopolul asupra \u00eenceputului de demen\u021b\u0103, dar e doar oboseala ultimelor dou\u0103 zile \u0219i noaptea \u00een care a plutit \u00eentre realitate \u0219i vis printre siluetele nev\u0103zute ale rudelor moarte.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Deasupra chilo\u021bilor, abdomenul ei bombat cirotic a\u0219teapt\u0103 anticoagulantul. Singurul medicament care ne-ar putea da de gol. \u00cen ochii unui cunosc\u0103tor, cele c\u00eeteva miligrame de enoxaparin\u0103 sodic\u0103 ar scoate-o din zona domestic\u0103 a invocatei infec\u021bii urinare \u0219i ar plasa-o direct \u00een statisticile pandemiei unde \u0219i este, oficial. <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00cenainte s\u0103 ap\u0103s pistonul, \u00eenchide din nou ochii \u0219i \u00eentoarce capul. Nu vrea s\u0103 fie nici m\u0103car martor\u0103, iar asta m\u0103 face s\u0103 injectez serul mai repede dec\u00eet aveam de g\u00eend. Fa\u021ba ei schimonosit\u0103 de durere \u00eemi confirm\u0103 b\u0103nuielile asupra cubului de ghea\u021b\u0103 recomandat a se folosi \u00eenainte. \u00ce\u0219i trage bluza la loc \u0219i se \u00eenvele\u0219te cu pilota. <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

P\u00een\u0103 spre diminea\u021b\u0103, vin \u00een u\u0219a dormitorului ori de c\u00eete ori \u00eei aud sc\u00eencetele de animal \u00een agonie. Stau acolo \u0219i-i urm\u0103resc pieptul ridic\u00eendu-se \u0219i cobor\u00eend ritmic. \u00cenainte s\u0103 se lumineze, m\u0103 strecor la capul patului \u0219i sting veioza. Din camera lui tata nu se aude nimic. M\u0103 apropii de u\u0219a \u00eentredeschis\u0103 \u0219i \u00eei z\u0103resc silueta \u00eentins\u0103 pe saltea.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0103 \u00eentorc \u00een dormitorul meu \u0219i verific telefonul. Acum o s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00een\u0103 \u0219i ceva, c\u00eend Luiza mi-a propus s\u0103 ne vedem, am folosit-o pe mama drept scuz\u0103. Mi-ar pl\u0103cea s\u0103 mai sune, dar cel mai probabil se g\u00eende\u0219te c\u0103 asta a fost ocazia perfect\u0103 s\u0103-mi fac ie\u0219irea din scen\u0103. Sau nu vrea s\u0103 deranjeze. C\u00eend ai pe cineva bolnav, n-ai timp de prostii. Ea a trecut de multe ori prin a\u0219a ceva, \u0219tie s\u0103 navigheze apele astea. Exact cum ar trebui s\u0103 \u0219tiu \u0219i eu la v\u00eersta mea.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0103 a\u0219ez pe pat \u0219i tastez.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00eemi pare r\u0103u c\u0103 n-am mai apucat s\u0103 vorbim. sper s\u0103 ne auzim cur\u00eend<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Privesc c\u00eeteva secunde inimioara de la sf\u00eer\u0219it \u0219i \u0219terg. Poate nu e momentul s\u0103 trimit astfel de mesaje. Poate nici nu se mai g\u00eende\u0219te la mine. \u0218i oricum, doarme. Toat\u0103 lumea doarme, \u00een afar\u0103 de mine. Scot Biblia de sub pern\u0103 \u0219i m\u0103 \u00eentind \u00een pat, cu cartea pe piept. \u201eTat\u0103l nostru care e\u0219ti \u00een ceruri\u2026\u201d \u00cen cerurile din mintea mea, Dumnezeu cap\u0103t\u0103 ochii migdala\u021bi ai Luizei \u0219i buzele ei pline.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u0218i ce s\u0103-i spun? C\u0103 dup\u0103 ce am f\u0103cut \u00eempreun\u0103 mi\u0219to de crucifixurile at\u00eernate de clan\u021be, de credincio\u0219ii care alearg\u0103 de la o biseric\u0103 la alta \u00een c\u0103utarea salv\u0103rii de virus, de m\u0103\u0219tile de protec\u021bie cobor\u00eete \u00een fa\u021ba raclelor cu moa\u0219te \u00eenaintea s\u0103rutului, am descoperit divinitatea? Sau, mai exact, c\u0103 am hot\u0103r\u00eet s\u0103-i accept existen\u021ba \u0219i s\u0103 \u00eenchei cu ea un t\u00eerg provizoriu? C\u0103 doar m\u0103rturisirea \u00een fa\u021ba ei mai poate \u0219terge vina, le poate proteja pe mama \u0219i pe asistent\u0103? \u0218i c\u0103 doar a\u0219a rela\u021bia noastr\u0103 poate rezista?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

C\u00eend m\u0103 trezesc, e deja lumin\u0103. Pun Biblia pe raft \u0219i ies din camer\u0103. \u00cen buc\u0103t\u0103rie, tata st\u0103 \u00een fa\u021ba aragazului \u0219i prive\u0219te pierdut apa fiart\u0103 din ibric.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 S-a ridicat, a fost la baie, acum e la ea \u00een camer\u0103, \u00eemi spune.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

St\u0103 \u00een pat. \u0218i-a pus halatul bun \u0219i se piapt\u0103n\u0103, iar mi\u0219c\u0103rile i-au devenit sigure. Privirea nu-i mai alunec\u0103 pe suprafa\u021ba lucrurilor.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Ce zici, mai vine? spune c\u00eend m\u0103 vede \u00een prag.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dumnezeu cunoa\u0219te istoriile n\u0103scute din orice \u201edac\u0103\u201d, dar poate azi-noapte ar fi trebuit s\u0103 m\u0103 rog \u00een mod explicit \u0219i pentru asta.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 De ce s\u0103 nu mai vin\u0103?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Dac\u0103 au sunat-o \u0103\u0219tia de la DSP?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Crezi c\u0103 la fiecare caz confirmat se-apuc\u0103 s\u0103 avertizeze fiecare cadru medical din \u021bar\u0103?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

C\u00eet r\u0103m\u00eene \u00een zona lucrurilor deja \u00eent\u00eemplate, \u00eei pot \u021bine mintea departe de adev\u0103ratul pericol: s\u0103 ne trezim cu poli\u021bia comunitar\u0103 la u\u0219\u0103 \u00een timp ce Gina \u00eei face tratamentul.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Poate a sunat ea la DSP.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 De ce?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ridic\u0103 din umeri \u0219i continu\u0103 s\u0103 culeag\u0103 fire de p\u0103r de pe pilot\u0103 \u0219i din perie. Le \u00eenf\u0103\u0219oar\u0103 pe ar\u0103t\u0103tor \u0219i degetul mijlociu \u00een inele ro\u0219cate \u0219i le a\u0219az\u0103 l\u00eeng\u0103 ea, pe pat. Un obicei c\u0103p\u0103tat acum dou\u0103zeci de ani dup\u0103 \u0219edin\u021bele de radioterapie \u0219i care, de atunci, \u00eei \u00eenso\u021be\u0219te orice episod de boal\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Nici m\u0103car nu \u0219tie cum te cheam\u0103, spun, sper\u00eend s\u0103 nu pomeneasc\u0103 nimic de baza de date.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Are adresa.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ia oglinda de pe noptier\u0103 \u0219i \u00ee\u0219i studiaz\u0103 cei c\u00ee\u021biva centimetri de p\u0103r alb de la r\u0103d\u0103cin\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Ar\u0103t r\u0103u, a\u0219a-i?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu-mi amintesc s\u0103 o fi v\u0103zut ca acum nici c\u00eend era internat\u0103 la IOB. \u00cen schimb, \u021bin minte mirosul medicamentelor amestecat cu cel de hipoclorit, cel al parfumului folosit de ea \u00een acea vreme \u0219i al portocalelor aduse de tata, pe care tot eu le m\u00eencam. Niciodat\u0103 nu mi-a repro\u0219at lucrul \u0103sta, a\u0219a cum \u00eenc\u0103 o face cu ceilal\u021bi. \u201eErai student \u0219i aveai o singur\u0103 pereche de adida\u0219i, \u0219i \u0103ia rup\u021bi\u201d \u021bine s\u0103-mi reaminteasc\u0103 cu fiecare ocazie, \u0219i nu \u00een\u021beleg rostul. Ne \u0219tim am\u00eendoi trucurile, ca doi magicieni ie\u0219i\u021bi la pensie.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 E\u0219ti bolnav\u0103, nu se pune.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Ce s\u0103 se pun\u0103?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Z\u00eembe\u0219te nedumerit\u0103, dar nu am energie s\u0103-i explic gluma. Ocolesc patul \u0219i m\u0103 duc la fereastr\u0103. \u00cen fa\u021ba blocului, vecinul de la patru \u0219i-a pus pe banc\u0103 baxul de h\u00eertie igienic\u0103 \u0219i saco\u0219ele burdu\u0219ite cu m\u00eencare. \u00ce\u0219i trage masca de pe figur\u0103, scuip\u0103 \u00eentr-o parte \u0219i \u0219i-o a\u0219az\u0103 la loc. \u201eNebunia asta i-a redus pe cei mai mul\u021bi la dou\u0103 g\u0103uri: gur\u0103 \u0219i cur\u201d, mi-a spus Luiza la \u00eenceput. \u201eTuburi digestive \u00een c\u0103utare de hran\u0103 \u0219i sex.\u201d Nu cred c\u0103 \u00een apartamentul \u0103sta s-a f\u0103cut vreodat\u0103 sex. Nu \u0219tiu s\u0103 fi v\u0103zut vreodat\u0103 m\u0103car un gest de tandre\u021be \u00eentre mama \u0219i tata, iar eu nu am adus nicio femeie acas\u0103. De masturbat, nu mai \u00eendr\u0103znesc \u00een ultima vreme, de team\u0103 s\u0103 nu pice \u00een\u021belegerea cu Dumnezeu.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Dac\u0103 nu mai vine, nu \u0219tiu ce fac.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eNici eu\u201d, \u00eemi vine s\u0103-i spun. Au trecut doar patru zile de c\u00eend iau decizii, \u0219i deja am obosit. O zi \u00eentreag\u0103 am sunat peste tot p\u00een\u0103 am dat de Gina. Nu cred c\u0103 a\u0219 reu\u0219i s\u0103 g\u0103sesc pe altcineva. Acum a\u0219 vrea s\u0103 dorm \u0219i at\u00eet.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 O s\u0103 vin\u0103, nu te-agita.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

D\u0103 din cap. Ia peria \u0219i \u00eencepe din nou s\u0103 se pieptene.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Ieri a-nt\u00eerziat o or\u0103, acum trebuia s\u0103 vin\u0103 la \u0219apte \u0219i-i deja \u0219i jumate\u2026 Nu-mi place de ea, nu-i serioas\u0103. Eu \u00een\u021beleg c\u0103 se duce \u0219i la cabinetul \u0103la particular, dar acum diminea\u021b\u0103 nu trebuie s-ajung\u0103 \u0219i ea la munc\u0103? \u0218i pe urm\u0103 st\u0103 de-o uit\u0103 Dumnezeu, iar m\u0103n\u00eenc t\u00eerziu. \u0218i vorbe\u0219te mult, se bag\u0103-n mine \u0219i\u2026 Nu \u0219tiu\u2026 Cum s\u0103-i zic s\u0103 stea mai departe? Numai pentru ea nu-mi mai f\u0103ceam acum griji, c\u0103-n rest\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 E singura pe care am g\u0103sit-o.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 \u0218tiu, dar uite c\u0103\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eUite c\u0103 era mai bine dac\u0103 m\u0103 l\u0103sai \u00een spital. Acolo erau obliga\u021bi s\u0103 se ocupe de mine\u201d, ar vrea s\u0103 spun\u0103. Iar eu ar trebui s\u0103 \u0219terg din minte disperarea de pe fa\u021ba ei c\u00eend o conduceau spre container \u0219i apoi aceea\u0219i expresie c\u00eend am decis s\u0103 o scot de acolo pe propria r\u0103spundere.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 \u00ce\u021bi aduc ceaiul s\u0103 iei pastilele?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Din prag, tata \u00eei z\u00eembe\u0219te binevoitor. <\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Trebuie s\u0103 m\u0103n\u00eenc mai \u00eent\u00eei, D\u0103nu\u021b, ai uitat? Nu pot s\u0103 le iau pe stomacul gol.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tata o prive\u0219te insistent. Se ab\u021bine cu greu s\u0103 zic\u0103 ceva \u0219i \u00eei mul\u021bumesc \u00een g\u00eend. Scoate din buzunarul pantalonilor de trening o cutie \u0219i o a\u0219az\u0103 l\u00eeng\u0103 celelalte medicamente.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Ce-i acolo?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Antibioticul. Era \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Care antibiotic, D\u0103nu\u021b? Nu era aici? Ia vezi tu, mam\u0103, ce-a pus \u0103sta acolo.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Iau cutia \u0219i o bag \u00een buzunar \u00eenainte s\u0103 se enerveze.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 E cel\u0103lalt, a\u0219a-i? D\u0103nu\u021b, ai uitat c\u0103 am alergie la antibioticul \u0103la? Nu te-am trimis eu \u00eenapoi la farmacie s\u0103 iei ce trebuie? \u0102sta vrea s\u0103 m\u0103 omoare.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Prive\u0219te spre mine a\u0219tept\u00eend s\u0103 zic ceva.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Doamne, ce repede uit\u0103, spune dup\u0103 ce tata se \u00eentoarce \u00een buc\u0103t\u0103rie. Nu \u0219tiu ce s\u0103 mai fac, vorbe\u0219ti cu el ca \u0219i cu pere\u021bii.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Renun\u021b s\u0103-i mai explic pentru a nu \u0219tiu c\u00eeta oar\u0103 c\u0103 mintea intr\u0103 \u00een declin chiar \u0219i f\u0103r\u0103 problemele lui. C\u0103 tocmai asta ar fi absurd, s\u0103 ne a\u0219tept\u0103m ca mintea s\u0103-i func\u021bioneze tot mai bine.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 \u0218i nu \u0219tiu, mi-e a\u0219a de femeia asta.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00cenc\u0103 m\u0103 prinde pe picior gre\u0219it rapiditatea cu care trece de la un subiect de discu\u021bie la altul.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 A\u0219a ce?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Dac\u0103 se \u00eemboln\u0103ve\u0219te \u0219i ea?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu g\u0103sesc niciun r\u0103spuns care ne-ar lini\u0219ti.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Numai la asta m\u0103 g\u00eendesc, continu\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Loganul Ginei intr\u0103 cu vitez\u0103 pe alee \u0219i parcheaz\u0103 \u00een fa\u021ba blocului. Asistenta deschide portiera, \u00ee\u0219i ia geanta \u0219i se \u00eendreapt\u0103 cu pa\u0219i gr\u0103bi\u021bi spre u\u0219a blocului. \u00cemi place energia ei. Timp de mai bine de o or\u0103 c\u00eet st\u0103 la noi, casa asta prinde via\u021b\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 A venit, spun \u0219i ocolesc patul.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mama \u00ee\u0219i pune cele dou\u0103 m\u0103\u0219ti de protec\u021bie una peste alta \u0219i \u00ee\u0219i trece \u00eenc\u0103 o dat\u0103 m\u00eena prin p\u0103r. M\u0103 \u00eentreab\u0103 din priviri dac\u0103 arat\u0103 bine.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Ce face doamna? se aude Gina \u00een holul de la intrare.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu a\u0219teapt\u0103 r\u0103spunsul lui tata \u0219i se repede spre dormitor, gata s\u0103 ne ciocnim pe hol.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Ia uite, toat\u0103 lumea s-a trezit.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00ce\u0219i face loc pe l\u00eeng\u0103 mine \u0219i intr\u0103 \u00een camer\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Ei, da, a\u021bi prins culoare, s\u00eente\u021bi mult mai bine, a\u0219a-i?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Da, pu\u021bin, dar tot m\u0103 simt a\u0219a\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Ei, l\u0103sa\u021bi, c\u0103 uite ce frumoas\u0103 s\u00eente\u021bi.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00ce\u0219i scoate paltonul, \u00eel arunc\u0103 pe pat \u0219i se a\u0219az\u0103 l\u00eeng\u0103 mama, care \u00ee\u0219i verific\u0103 m\u0103\u0219tile \u0219i prive\u0219te speriat\u0103 c\u00eend la Gina, c\u00eend la mine.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Sta\u021bi lini\u0219tit\u0103, doamn\u0103. Ne testeaz\u0103 la spital, la dou\u0103, trei zile.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Intru \u0219i m\u0103 a\u0219ez pe pat. Tata s-a oprit \u00een u\u0219\u0103 \u0219i to\u021bi trei o urm\u0103rim pe asistent\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Azi b\u0103g\u0103m \u0219i glucoz\u0103, \u0219i ceva vitamine, spune dup\u0103 ce verific\u0103 antebra\u021bul mamei. O s\u0103 dureze pu\u021bin mai mult, dar ia s\u0103 vede\u021bi cum v\u0103 pun pe picioare-n c\u00eeteva zile.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Dar \u0219ti\u021bi c\u0103 am alergie la\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Doamn\u0103, sta\u021bi lini\u0219tit\u0103 c\u0103 de-astea le dau \u0219i-n spital la bolnavi. De unde crede\u021bi c\u0103 le am?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mama \u00eemi arunc\u0103 din nou o privire disperat\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Du-te, mam\u0103, nu sta aici.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 L\u0103sa\u021bi-l s\u0103 stea dac\u0103 vrea, doamn\u0103, nu m\u0103 deranjeaz\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mama prinde momentul c\u00eend Gina nu e atent\u0103 \u0219i \u00eemi face semn s\u0103 m\u0103 a\u0219ez c\u00eet mai departe. \u201eAm stat at\u00eetea ore l\u00eeng\u0103 tine, dac\u0103 e ceva, am luat deja.\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 D\u0103nu\u021b, mergi \u0219i f\u0103 o cafea pentru doamna, nu sta aici. Sau du-te \u0219i cump\u0103r\u0103 ce-am zis.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 M\u0103 duc eu, \u00eei spun.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Las\u0103, c\u0103 dac\u0103 te \u00eemboln\u0103ve\u0219ti, cine mai are grij\u0103 de noi? Du-te \u0219i f\u0103 cafeaua mai \u00eent\u00eei, \u00eei spune lui tata care clatin\u0103 din cap \u0219i pleac\u0103, bomb\u0103nind.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Nu v\u0103 deranja\u021bi, domnu\u2019, am b\u0103ut deja una, strig\u0103 Gina dup\u0103 el.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Se \u00eentoarce spre mama \u0219i z\u00eembe\u0219te.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 L\u0103sa\u021bi-i s\u0103 stea, doamn\u0103, c\u0103 doar pe ei \u00eei ave\u021bi ajutoare, nu? D\u0103-mi \u0219i mie\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gina \u00eemi arat\u0103 spre flaconul cu ser fiziologic.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Eh, domnu\u2019 nu prea-mi mai e de ajutor c\u0103\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Asistenta \u00eenfige acul \u00een capacul flaconului \u0219i umple seringa.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 De ce? Ce-are?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Cred c\u0103 un \u00eenceput de demen\u021b\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 \u0218i n-a\u021bi fost cu el la medic s\u0103 vede\u021bi?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Da\u2019 vrea?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 L\u0103sa\u021bi c\u0103 vorbesc eu cu el dup\u0103 ce termin\u0103m aici.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mama d\u0103 din cap \u0219i se uit\u0103 spre mine.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Du-te, mam\u0103, \u0219i mai dormi.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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\u00cei fac semn c\u0103 s\u00eent bine. Gina str\u00eenge garoul \u0219i fixeaz\u0103 acul \u00een ven\u0103. Agit\u0103 cu mi\u0219c\u0103ri de barman flaconul, \u00eel aga\u021b\u0103 de e\u0219arf\u0103 \u0219i mi-l \u00eentinde. M\u0103 urc pe pat \u0219i trec e\u0219arfa peste bra\u021bul lustrei, l\u0103s\u00eend sticla s\u0103 se b\u0103l\u0103ng\u0103ne \u00een aer. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Hai c-o s\u0103 v\u0103 face\u021bi bine. Ia uite ce frumoas\u0103 s\u00eente\u021bi. \u0218i ce halat frumos ave\u021bi.<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

\u00cei fac semn c\u0103 s\u00eent bine. Gina str\u00eenge garoul \u0219i fixeaz\u0103 acul \u00een ven\u0103. Agit\u0103 cu mi\u0219c\u0103ri de barman flaconul, \u00eel aga\u021b\u0103 de e\u0219arf\u0103 \u0219i mi-l \u00eentinde. M\u0103 urc pe pat \u0219i trec e\u0219arfa peste bra\u021bul lustrei, l\u0103s\u00eend sticla s\u0103 se b\u0103l\u0103ng\u0103ne \u00een aer.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Hai c-o s\u0103 v\u0103 face\u021bi bine. Ia uite ce frumoas\u0103 s\u00eente\u021bi. \u0218i ce halat frumos ave\u021bi.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 \u0218ti\u021bi c\u00ee\u021bi ani are halatul \u0103sta? spune mama \u0219i m\u00eeng\u00eeie materialul decolorat. Dou\u0103zeci de ani. L-am luat c\u00eend m-am operat, c\u0103 n-aveam nici\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Ce opera\u021bie?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 La\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Mama arat\u0103 spre piept \u0219i vocea \u00eencepe s\u0103-i tremure.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Dar n-a\u021bi mai avut probleme de-atunci, nu? spune Gina atent\u0103 la debitul perfuziei.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Cu asta, nu. Cu altele.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gina mai verific\u0103 o dat\u0103 perfuzia, ia loc pe pat \u0219i pune palma pe piciorul mamei.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Cu inima, rinichii, coloana\u2026, continu\u0103 mama.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 \u0218i b\u0103iatul?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Cred c\u0103-i bine. E\u0219ti bine, m\u0103?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0103 \u00eentorc spre ele \u0219i dau din cap c\u0103 da.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Nu se-nsoar\u0103?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 De unde, doamn\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Dar c\u00ee\u021bi ani are? C\u00ee\u021bi ani ai?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 41.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Cu \u0219apte ani mai mic ca mine. Ce mai a\u0219tep\u021bi?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Unde s\u0103 se duc\u0103, doamn\u0103? Nu vede\u021bi ce scumpe-s casele acum? \u0218i cu nenorocirea asta\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Ei, doar nu ziceam pentru m\u00eeine. Dup\u0103 ce trece pandemia.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

A\u0219 vrea s\u0103 m\u0103 ridic \u0219i s\u0103 ies din camer\u0103. Scot telefonul \u0219i \u00eencep s\u0103 butonez la \u00eent\u00eemplare.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 \u0218i nici nu cred c\u0103 are pe cineva. Ai, m\u0103, pe cineva?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u0103 fac c\u0103 nu o aud.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Cum s\u0103 n-aib\u0103, doamn\u0103? spune Gina. Ia zi, ai?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bag telefonul \u00een buzunar \u0219i inspir ad\u00eenc. \u00cemi privesc pantalonii de trening \u0219i-mi imaginez ni\u0219te genunchi plini de julituri, sub tivul unor pantaloni scur\u021bi.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Da, am. Sau\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Ai? strig\u0103 mama \u0219i se ridic\u0103 mai bine \u00eentre perne. De c\u00eend?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Vreo lun\u0103 \u0219i ceva.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Cum o cheam\u0103?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Luiza.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Ia uite, \u0219i mie nu-mi zice nimic.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Dar ce, trebuie s\u0103 v\u0103 spun\u0103 tot?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 P\u0103i nu s\u00eent maic\u0103-sa?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Gina se ridic\u0103. Love\u0219te cu bob\u00eernacul tubul perfuziei \u0219i-mi cere s\u0103-i dau flaconul cu glucoz\u0103.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 \u0218i ce mai a\u0219tep\u021bi? \u00eemi spune.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Se urc\u0103 pe pat, \u00eenfige acul \u00een recipientul de plastic ag\u0103\u021bat de lustr\u0103 \u0219i injecteaz\u0103 glucoza.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Mut\u0103-te cu ea. N-ar trebui s\u0103 mai stai cu p\u0103rin\u021bii la v\u00eersta asta.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Unde s\u0103 se mute?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 G\u0103sesc ei, doamn\u0103. De unde-i fata?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Sibiu.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Tocmai acolo? strig\u0103 din nou mama. S\u0103 vin\u0103 \u00eencoace, sta\u021bi aici.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Unde, doamn\u0103, aici? Trebuie s\u0103 se mute singuri. Are cas\u0103?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dau din cap c\u0103 da.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Ia uite, gata, s-a rezolvat.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Unde s\u0103 plece tocmai \u00een cel\u0103lalt cap\u0103t de \u021bar\u0103? Trebuie s\u0103-\u0219i g\u0103seasc\u0103 de munc\u0103 acolo, e greu.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201eVorbim doar de o lun\u0103. \u0218i mai \u00eent\u00eei ar trebui s\u0103 m\u0103 l\u0103muresc dac\u0103 mai s\u00eentem \u00eempreun\u0103\u201d, a\u0219 vrea s\u0103 le spun. Mama se trage mai departe de Gina, \u00ee\u0219i a\u0219az\u0103 din nou m\u0103\u0219tile pe fa\u021b\u0103 \u0219i m\u0103 prive\u0219te cu ochii mari.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Sta\u021bi lini\u0219tit\u0103, doamn\u0103, spune Gina, apoi se \u00eentoarce spre mine. Ce, \u021bi-e team\u0103 c\u0103 nu te descurci?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Se descurc\u0103, r\u0103spunde mama. Cine a avut grij\u0103 de mine? Dac\u0103 nu era el\u2026 dac\u0103 m\u0103 l\u0103sam \u00een baza mom\u00eeii de b\u0103rbate-miu\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Vocea \u00eencepe s\u0103-i tremure din nou. M\u00eeng\u00eeie a\u0219ternutul \u0219i \u00eenghite \u00een sec.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Sau \u0219tiu eu\u2026 Te-ai descurca, m\u0103?<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Nu reu\u0219esc s\u0103 m\u0103 imaginez sp\u0103l\u00eend, c\u0103lc\u00eend, f\u0103c\u00eend de m\u00eencare \u0219i probabil nici ea. La cur\u0103\u021benie nu a\u0219 avea probleme. E singura treab\u0103 \u00een care m-a implicat p\u00een\u0103 acum.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2014 Din partea mea, s\u0103 se mute, dar dac\u0103 ar fi m\u0103car aici \u00een ora\u0219, a\u0219 putea s\u0103-l ajut la treburi, la\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Deschid fereastra de WhatsApp a Luizei. E conectat\u0103. Ezit c\u00eeteva clipe \u00eenainte s\u0103 tastez.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

crezi c\u0103 ne putem auzi la telefon? mama e mai bine<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

A\u0219tept \u00een zadar o continuare la thumb up<\/em>-ul ei din fereastr\u0103. Fac o poz\u0103 \u0219i i-o trimit. \u00cen cadru, mama str\u00eenge m\u0103\u0219tile \u00een jurul nasului, \u00eencerc\u00eend s\u0103 stea c\u00eet mai departe de Gina.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00eemi pare r\u0103u nu cred c\u0103 merge \u00eentre noi hai s-o l\u0103s\u0103m balt\u0103<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Citesc mesajul de mai multe ori, \u00een speran\u021ba c\u0103 descop\u0103r ceva ce mi-a sc\u0103pat, p\u00een\u0103 c\u00eend Luiza se deconecteaz\u0103. Mama \u00ee\u0219i continu\u0103 lament\u0103rile, iar Gina \u00eei ofer\u0103 contraargumente. \u00cen cerurile din mintea mea, divinitatea nu mai are chipul Luizei. Nu mai are nici chipul Dianei, tipa de acum trei ani, nici al Iuliei, tipa de acum \u0219apte ani, nici al Simonei, al Marinei, al Cristinei. Are p\u0103rul ro\u0219cat, cuta ad\u00eenc\u0103 dintre spr\u00eencenele mamei \u0219i linia sub\u021bire a gurii ei peste care se revars\u0103 musta\u021ba lui Nietzsche. Bag m\u00eena \u00een buzunar \u0219i pip\u0103i cutia cu antibioticul. Scot dou\u0103 fiole, le a\u0219ez pe m\u0103su\u021b\u0103 l\u00eeng\u0103 celelalte medicamente \u0219i ies din camer\u0103, sub privirile absente ale lui tata.<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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